Posted Feb 24, 2009
Jessi Frenzel Provisional   -   A special heart warming  story
 
It took me a few days to write this because I didn't know how to put it exactly in an email. But since I already spread the news that we were expecting, I need to let you know that we are no longer pregnant.
 
The day after I came home from MN, at around 10:30pm Friday night, I started bleeding and it continued through the night. That night of course I had trouble sleeping, I was worried, I was sad, I didn't know what would happen. But I knew God was in control and that He had planned. Whatever would happen was by His Will, and He is the Best of Planners.
 
The next day our midwife advised us to go to the ER for an ultrasound to see what was going on. It was there that we found out that the embryo never developed into a fetus.  All that was there was the "yolk sac" but no "fetal pole".  Somewhere around three weeks earlier, even that stopped developing, so they told me I was about to have a miscarriage.  It was actually a relief to find out that I didn't have a baby that died, there was no baby at all. We went back home, and by the next day (last Sunday) afternoon the worst was over.
 
To me, the word "miscarriage" has been a big scary word.  However, knowing that approximately 1 out of every 5 pregnancies is a miscarriage, I knew I had a good likelihood that it may happen to me, especially since I had already had two wonderful, healthy pregnancies and awesome, blessed births.
 
I am so thankful for how much merciful God was to us with this particular situation.  I am so thankful I was home when it started, not out-of-town, or worse-on the airplane.  I'm thankful that we didn't have time for the ultrasound we were planning before I went to MN.  If we would have had that, we would have found out things were not progressing and we would have had to wait and wait and wait for the process to begin.  And I'm really thankful that I didn't have to see a fetus.  It was more like a tiny empty amniotic sac attached to a tiny placenta.  Actually when talking about it, I hesitate to use the word miscarriage, although I definitely was pregnant, it was more like a menstruation.
 
I'm sorry if this is TMI and I also really do not mean in any way to offend anyone who has had a similar or more difficult situation. I am only sharing to let you know what's going on in our lives, and perhaps to help anyone else who might have something similar happen to them in the future.  I think that me hearing about something so similar that happened to another lady on a yahoo group I'm part of helped me not to be too scared when it happened to me.
 
We trust completely in our Lord and we know that He is the Most Merciful and Most Wise and He knows what is the best for us.  We hope and pray He blesses us again with more children, whenever it is right for us. We are content with His plan.
 
Just want you to know that we are doing fine, actually better than I ever expected.  
p.s.  One more thing I wanted to share with you, Marjie. The cramps got pretty bad on Sunday, but only for a very short time. Yet, in that time, I was so thankful for my Bradley training because I got myself into the side lying position, closed my eyes and tried to relax every part of me, just like in labor. That significantly reduced the pain.
 
So, Marjie, Thank you Bradley Method ®!